umm

arrrhh i feel bad. i need some mood pumpers.
sooooo many pressures...
i really dont know where did this sad feeling come from.

maybe because, ive got so many things i wanna do, and things i wanna buy, and my head is too full of them.

or maybe because its getting closer to my graduation day, and there are still many things i gotta do, because im one of the committee FYI! time feels so fast lately....soo fast... and 1 thing that keep dancing in my head and my stomach,is the fact that i have to give a speech on that day, as one of the graduates, in front of the people. that makes me stress out everyday..i never liked being in front of a lot of people!

or maybe, im just nervous if i'm accepted or not in 28 shs. im not that nervous actually. my mom once said: "why arent u worry? this is big! u have to pray a lot, u know" about praying, i agree. but about worrying...nobody knows that inside, im SO worry. but i wont show that, if im worry too much, its gonna be frustating, for me, and for my surroundings...

well, i gotta stop being like this! life is full of problems, and "those who live are those who fight", eh?
btw my new class at ILP starts today. hope it'll give me some joy.

(ps: sorry for my bad english)